You

Like an addict

crazed with lust

for the next fix

I crave to feel

the rush

of your name

flooding into my

veins.

Synapses overcome

with emotion

that defies control,

the image of you

haunts me

into

the dark fold

of a night

that is not

familiar

with the taste

of reprieve.

This

bittersweet flower

of pain

that spreads

from inside

my chest

should encourage me

to escape

but it sucks me deeper in.

Whirling round

and round

and round

this bottomless spiral

this world has trapped

me in,

I see

riddles and rhymes

merged and combined-

almost but never

close but far,

somewhere

in the distance

you manage

to toe

over my

boundary lines

with no understanding

of where you are.

One step at a time

one forward one back,

we wrap ourselves

into the lies we tell

to keep from falling apart.

To help myself

fall asleep

I tell myself

catharsis

will be achieved

even if you

remain

beyond

my reach.

July 2004.